Oh, absolutely. My mother mostly. She is one of my best friends, and i tell her EVERYTHING. We have a phenomenal relationship due to our communication with each other.

When you say family, do you mean the family i am born into, and have no choice in belonging in, or do you mean the family i have yet to build? A family i get to choose and create?

The family that nature set me into? I want my mother to live long, and see her grand babies have their own babies. I want my father to take care of himself and be able to walk me down the isle. My grandfather is becoming unhealthier as the days go on, but i love him. And more than anything i want him to see me get married, and i want my children to remember him after he goes. I want Karlee, my niece, to grow up loving and knowing the Lord. I never want her to doubt the way i do, and have. I want her to know this family loves her. I want everything to be resolved between my brother and his wife, and i wish for them to stop fighting around their child. I want my other brother's baby to be healthy and beautiful. Even though i know i wont be able to see him/her i want that child to know that even from this far away, i love it.

As for my future family, the one i am in the process of building. I hope Nick understands my need for a relationship with Christ. More than anything, i want him to renew that relationship as well. I pray we have a healthy and Loving relationship with each other. We will always respect one another. I want our children to know that mommy and daddy love them. I want three beautiful healthy wonderful children. I want them to know what God has done for them, and i wish for them to accept it, though i cannot force it upon them, nor will i attempt to. it has broken down one person i love already.

I will continue to pray for both families.

Title: If I go to Hell, It's because I'm an Avid Slasher.
Author: BWALK. orryanhasapeapeen whichever you fancy.
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: RYDEN. obv.
POV:Ryho's
Summary: My obsession had started around the time I was a freshman in high school.
Disclaimer: If this is real, than i am Paul Cates.
Author Notes:alright srsly. i really gotta stop this whole, waking-up-at-five-in-the-morning-with-a-good-slash-idea, thing. school starts soon D:
Dedication: i would like to dedicate this one to my GBF poptari~. She was the one who came up with such a wonderful title, unintentionally. i luff yew soh much bby.





( Obsession. )

Title: She Had The World
Author: ryanhasapeapeen
Rating:PG-13 i suppose
Pairing:Ryden, cause im SOO original
POV:Brendon's
Summary:This is the cliche, fluffy fic where brendan urie and ryan rose live HAPPILY EVER AFTER. u kno u kno
Disclaimer: SRSLY. this happened...in tari's dreams :D :D



( Who could love me? I am out of my mind )

Title:Waves of Wooden Legs
Rating:NC-17
Pairing:Ryan/Brendon/Jon
Summary:Brendon just could not fathom why his older brother wanted to drag him along to the circus.
Disclaimer:this totally happened...in tari's dream last night.
Dedication:MY BBY LOVE TARI.





( Legs of Wood Waves )

i have decided that this DrowningLesson3 journal is going to be strictly by stories.

i am going to go make a personal journal now.

it is ryanhasapeapeen

:D


right now, i am working on two stories.

decipher reflections from reality.

and

the failures.

so keep eyes out for those :)

Title: Like Brothers on a Hotel Bed
Pairing:Gerard/Frank
Rating:PG-13
Disclaimer: If i owned My Chemical Romance, do you really think i would be sitting in my room writing this false story?


( Brothers on a hotel bed )

Title: Summer Skin
Pairing:Gerard/Frank
Rating:R
Summary:The Season's change was a conduit.
Disclaimer: If i owned My Chemical Romance, do you really think i would be sitting in my room writing this false story?
Warnings: the horizontal tango.


( Summer Skin )

Title: What Frank Said
Pairing:Gerard/Frank
Rating:PG-13
Summary:So who's gonna watch you die?
Disclaimer: If I owned My Chemical Romance, do you really think I would be sitting in my room writting this false story?





( What Frank Said )